September 28th, 2007 (04:11 pm)
current mood: sad
My friend Céline LeCoeur died in August 2000 from Pulmonary Fibrosis (which had begun as a Minor case of Sarcoidosis.)she was 19 years old. She was engaged to be married and had a child, Lauren who had just turned a year old shortly before. And she was pregnant again. She said beforeheand that she was bigger than her stage so she was suspecting it was twins... the ironic thing is shortly after her death I talked to her sister Claudia and found out she'd been pregnant with twins...
I know it's been seven years but when she died it took me a long time to even accept it. I was in denial for the longest time. The awareness adoptable brought everything back
Refuse to Dance Pulmonary Fibrosis Awareness Pony.She was done as a tribute to the song by
Celine Dion and Charlie Dore and Alan Rickman
Charlie wrote the song for The Colour of My Love and Recorded her own version in 2005 with Alan Rickman speaking within.
She has now become a Memorial pony for my friend because she loved the music of Celine Dion
My friend Céline's mass letter she sent to the All the way/The Heart of Celine Club members. Besides being a member myself I had known her personally and had been talking to her for a long time. Excuse her typos, her first language was French.
Bonjour tout le monde,
This is quite a hard letter for me to write especially after the
positive news I just sent to you but it will be a hard one to read
too. But you really have to hear me and hear me well.
I know it seems I am bringing you on an emotional roller-coaster
telling you one thing that changes almost immedietely. That was the
same case for me. I have already recieved some letters sending
me "glad you're better". But today that is not the case. I have
been slammed back into the hospital with even worse pains and
difficulties. It seems one minute I am okay and then the very next I
am lying in a hospital bed hanged by a respirator. It's funny how
life can be like that.
I was diagnosed with a minor lung disease called Sarcoidosis but that
developed into a major Interstitial Lung Disease called Pulmonary
Fibrosis. In most cases this disease takes care of itself but not in
my case. I have as you could say, "the worst-case scenario". As the
doctor has bluntly put it; the disease will slowly take my lungs and
my life.
Now, if that sounded scary...it is. BUT it is not ANYTHING
to freak out about! I am still happy and if I only have a few days
left, then let these days be full of family and happiness. I am okay
with this but you HAVE to be too. I believe that God has a plan and
if His plan is to take me back home soon, I will gladly go. In my
head I feel living forever would be the right thing to want...that is
my worldly conception. And my head fights to keep my heart pumping
blood, my eyes blinking and my smile working. But my heart is
contented and tired.
During this time of struggling, I've thought a lot. This, being
something I RARELY do, was full of GREAT things. I thought about my
life. I HAVE NEVER DONE THIS. Why? My life is REAL boring so I
thought that I would put myself to sleep. For 13 years, I realised,
Céline Dion has been my life (other than
food sleep, golf, shopping and of course guys...not!). Pretty great
life to have lived if you ask me. Through her I've had my share of:
music for the heart, body and soul: fun: magic: laughs and cries: and
many amazing friends bound together by one similarity: the same role-
model and hero. A girl couldn't ask for too much more except for a
date every once and a while.
I also have had a LOT of love in my 19 years. From family to friends, to my fiance (BTW LeCoeur is my fiance's name!) And of course you all know Lauren, my dear little girl. She's my heart and I'm sure that she will be taken care of.
But anyway, I DO have a point. But WARNING!!!!! Please do not worry
or make anything of this.
I don't know how much life I have left in me. My last letter said
otherwise but I've taken ANOTHER turn for the worst. I don't feel
like I am living at all. This is no life to live. The doctor told me
something that would make me happy but to my parents he told a
different story. This is why I call this illness a roller-coaster.
And now, I have forced you onto the UP-AND-DOWN ride. I feel I
should have kept quiet. All I ask now of you is for prayers for my
family. You guys are so good with that. I know you guys are real supportive
but I don't want you to waste your thoughts on me. It should be a
happy time and I am happy.Celine Dion is having a baby, so there will not be a life missed. Stay positive and forget me. That's the best thing for all of you to do.
But I will introduce you to two of my best friends and siblings.Two more that you haven't met.Their names are Veronique and Claudia and they'll be real good friends. Both of them are younger than I am and, well, quiet unlike me.
Claudia is sixteen and lives with the family here in Montrealand she looks like me...which is scary, very, very scary. And she's been a fan of Céline Dion since 1993. What took her so long??? Veronique is seventeen and lives with the family in MTL, and also a fan of Céline's since 1993.She doesn't look much like me because she has brown hair and a bit taller than the rest of us.If you would like to contact her, and she gives me permission to tell you this, her email is veronique @ celineclub.com and her ICQ number is 84198171.
Now I hope I haven't freaked you out. I don't really know how to say
what I want to say other than I GIVE UP! I just thought that maybe I
would say my last goodbye and remind you of a few of my favorite
quotes that seem to fit:
"Fly, Fly. Do not fear. Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear.
Your heart is pure, your soul is free. BE ON YOUR WAY DON'T WAIT FOR
ME." --FLY--
"I believe that the heart does go on..." --My Heart Will Go On--
And my absolute favorite: "I'll love until love wears me away. I'l
die and I know my love will stay. And I know that love, my love will
stay." --LIVE--
Stay strong my friends, Céline LeCoeur
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